|  | The novel acquires its title from its female protagonist Parvez,
                a Parsi woman who is not comfortable with her social identity
                and says: "I have to find where I belong". The
                strength of the novel lies in the fact that it studies the
                politics of communalism through the eyes of the Parsi community
                to which the novelist herself belongs. The novel, in fact, doesn’t
                offer a structured story as such. It seems to be a projection of
                the turmoils outside as well as inside the mind of its
                protagonist and deals with how she comprehends life within
                political and communal upheavals. Pervez could be regarded as
                the writer’s mouthpiece, trying to confront the conventional
                opinion that "We Parsis are such a tiny minority we can’t
                afford to interfere". Nevertheless, an unprejudiced
                perception of the Hindu-Muslim conflict is feasible through a
                Parsi’s mind as the Parsis are "neutral" in their
                affiliations: "Being neither Hindu nor Muslim felt strange
                in these times of turmoil. Like wearing a skin that magically
                protects. For Parsis were respected by both the warring
                communities and left alone even as they brutally assaulted each
                other. She had never been conscious of her Parsi identity but
                now she wondered whether neutrality could be positively
                employed".
 Pestonji, a
                journalist belonging to the Parsi community, is self-conscious
                of her own and of her clan’s position and describes her birth
                in a Parsi family as "accidental". What she insists
                upon is the contribution of the people to the society as
                individuals rather than as envoys of various ethnic groups. The
                novel says: "She had lost links with the community of her
                birth and realised she’d have to act as an individual."
                It is important to go beyond one’s personal alliances,
                especially when the lives of innocent people are threatened by
                hollow interests of the powerful few. But the question that
                needs to be asked is "Can individuals be effective when
                communal virus had driven half the population insane?" Although communal
                conflicts are the focus of the novel, the collision of
                contrasting cultures elevates the sense displacement that Parvez
                experiences after her unsuccessful marriage in a Christian
                family. However, after she walks out of the relationship she
                matures as a person and is able to establish herself an
                individual who is not swayed by the Marxist idealism or
                beleaguered by feminist voices. She needs to make a difference
                and not remain cocooned within her privileged sect. Parvez seems
                to have found here identity in the role of an academician, one
                who can disapprove of the things around and yet not be allied to
                any group except the human race. Similar to artists who take the
                responsibility of maintaining communal harmony: "Art opens
                the mind... Artists can’t be anything except against
                communalism". Nonetheless, this does not mean that one
                needs to be an accomplished artist in order to fight for peace.
                Each individual is creative in her/his own and that should be
                enough to make a difference.
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