Focus on now

I have been living two lives,

one in my thoughts and one in the present moment.

My thoughts are a swirling vortex and I have not been able to put my subconscious mind into an alignment.

I sometimes feel that my brain should stop and to purge out of that thought is a constant debacle.

The ephemeral peace that I get out of living in the exact moment and then snapping out of it has maybe made me impassive deliberately.

Yet I practice mindfulness and I am doing these exercises to be present, to feel and to create within the moment.

I have stopped harbouring resentments. I am trying hard to forgive and move on.

I am trying to quash non-essential possessions which are associated with emotions that dinky.

I am trying not to overthink and to be able to wrest myself out of an imaginative situation.

I am relinquishing my addictions that have held me hostage.

Step by step I am working on these things and hopefully I will be able to be aware of the present and I will be able to focus on “now”.